"I know am beautiful, stupid"

"You are beautiful my daughter, my lovely daughter" I can to this day hear clearly my dad's voice when he told me I was beautiful, he was the first man to ever tell me how beautiful I was at a tender age of about 5 or probably even younger. So I know am beautiful and dont need anyone to tell me so for me to feel good especially when it is coming from a guy who is trying to get flirty.

Today, I looked good as usual and was on my way to church very early in the morning and I felt good about my appearance and my lovely naija gown. As an usher in the house of God, my position was to stand right in front of the sanctuary and usher people all the way to the front and give them seat. I love doing that and itz no big deal cos I enjoy seeing people getting comfortable. However, it becomes unbearable for me when I have someone staring at me ceaselessly for no cogent reason.

There was this particular guy that just wouldnt look away, what I did was, when I saw the guy standing up to go the wash room I followed him and told him to stop staring at me cos it was making me uncomfortable and I need to concentrate on my work. I gave him a heinous smiled to make sure he got it into his head that it was no joke and quietly walked away. Now, I believe my friend when she said there is no difference between some people and a GOAT, a goat is a very stubborn animal, very agile and annoying that goes back to the same spot where it was chased from.

As if I had just told this guy "please stare at me and whisper sweet nothings to me" It got me annoyed when he began to say things to me from his seat, and once I turned to look at him and his lips, I figured out that he said "you are beautiful" without thinking, I found myself saying "I know am beautiful, stupid". Only then did I realize that it was wrong of me to have done that.

I hate it when people, especially guyz try to flirt with me for no reason and then tell me things that I already know. It'll only take the grace of God for me not to like this guy and have no prejudices for him when next I see him, am suppose to love my brothers in the Lord and I pray for grace to love all and sundry both those who are reasonable and unreasonable.

I love everyone and hope to bring out the best in everyone, I pray I can continually handle issues like this with all wisdom!

GOOD HAIR!!!

Watching Chris Rock's video "Good Hair" got me wondering what actually it is, what is good hair, and when do I know I have a good hair, do I even av a good hair? A lot has being going through my mind lately about my hair, my hair care and how much time I dedicate to my hair maintenance. Am glad though to some extend cos at least since I left home I have being taking care of my hair without the need of the salon and am doing a great job, since I've heard 'I like ur hair" a couple of times from people.

The truth is I think am obsessed about my hair and how it should or shouldnt be. It all started when I first left home, the culture shock was great and some what unbearable for me, it was hard to believe there was no hair relaxer here in Malaysia and I badly needed one. In my desperation I met someone who applied only God knows what on my hair in the name of relaxer, the whole hair came off and I had to cut my hair short. Even though she destroyed my hair am a bit grateful to her cos that started my hair journey and today am loving my hair so much.

This is my hair journey for 11months.....

I spend a lot of money on my hair, but I have no regrets cos itz paying off. I use a combo of hair products on my hair and it gets good treatment, little wonder itz so healthy; my favourite brands are Ginvera (leave-on conditioner, hair serum, olive oil), Dove (shampoo, conditioner, hair damage treatment), Tresemme (shampoo, protect conditioner) and so many others. My hair regimen is awesome, and am sure that Good Hair is Healthy, happy Hair!

All through the week...Itz no more Latent

Am discovering another aspect of me I thought was latent. Now I have one more thing to add to my list of hobbies; as a matter of fact the only hobby I think I have is combing my hair. I do it with or without a comb cos weneva am not at home especially during a boring lecture all I do is lean backwards on my seat and envisage myself combing my hair. I seriously cant explain why am so obsessed about my hair, I dont think I have a really amazing hair all I know is that I love combing it. And yeah another hobby is staying at home, of course this one is the best of all. I love staying at home above every other thing!

"I have always known derez something special about you" a guy told me the other day on facebook and I kept wondering what is so special about me, then he went on "derez sometin within you that is hidden and you dont wanna show it" I must admit that at first I thought the guy was trying to psych me up for some crazy intentions, but now am beginning to agree, derez rily sth hidden about me and I have discovered it eventhough am pessimistic that derez more about me to be tapped and brought to limelight. Am so happy and pleased with myself cos I know very soon everybody will know my name, very soon I will be known as Nanko the.....am glad that guy told me cos it got me thinking am also grateful to him. Another guy am grateful to is Gaib; you'll never see this I know cos you dont even know I blog but all the same am grateful to my accountant-always-on-facebook friend who told me about this amazing website that added a new thing to not just my list of hobbies but also my life.

On that fateful day I couldnt sleep and He wasnt with so boredom was terribly killing me, then aha! facebook came handy and wen I logged on Gaib told me what he was doing and since I was bored I decided to check it out. I havent looked back after that. Am so glad I did, no regrets whatsoever! Am loving every bit of this, am enjoying standing in front of my mirror and doing my thing all day long while I make every other furniture in the room the audience.I know practice makes perfect and if I continue like this, I'll become a household name in no time.

What is it I have discovered? What is it I do in front of my mirror all day? Itz not talking or even combing my hair, far from it- am seriously Dancing and having fun all day long. Am not dancing to music in my head, am dancing to correct naija jamz live from HOT FM 98.3 Abuja here in my Bandar Sunway room and derez no way I can write how I feel, I cant find the right words to express my emotions . This is because I thought it was completely impossible to listen to naija music on radio while far away in another country, until Gaib told me wasup.

I can say in the midst of my joy that am Proud to be African, am proud to be Nigerian...:D

Too Good to be true....Please dont End, plea...:D

This morning when I woke up I found myself wishing this wouldn't end, I wish it wont end-I wish the endless hours of sleep will go on and on, and also watching Tv and movies all day long "if only wishes were horses, even beggars will ride". Itz so great waking up at my own convenience and doing whatever I want to during the day, itz even better stayin at home all through and then deciding to go downstairs to swim before going to bed, eating McD and having a great time watching movies on Astro, going shopping and spending the whole day at the mall doing nothing but taking pictures and entering into every shop just to "see what they have in here". Gosh I wish all these wont end, i wish the one week mid semester break from school and work wont end.

Last week Friday, exactly one week today my break started. I was so excited about the break that I slept for over 13 hrs (seriously), I woke up and felt happy with myself, no remorse what so ever after all I was only retrieving all the hours I had spent doing my assignments instead of sleeping. Then I ate, watched movie and began to celebrate my break. I made up my mind to forget everything school despite my friends nagging that I should use this time to study for my exams, "hell no, exams is in 2 months time, now is time to enjoy the break and forget school for a week". I dont even want to spend too much time writin this bcos itz takin part of the time suppose to use watchin a movie, thatz why am usin so many short hand in my writin......Gosh am enjoyin my break, am more than enjoyin this. I have never taken so many pictures in my entire life, now I realize am not that ugly after all and I look gud in pictures too like the likes of Kim Kardashian. Here are some of the best of best of me....

You can then imagine how heart broken I was when yesterday, one of my classmates told me on facebook that I have any assignment due on the 27th...damn school and school work, wich kan wahala be dis. I told her I was going to check it and get back to her cos itz a group assignment that we have to work on together, but deep within me I was saying "am sorry Madaha, am on break, contact me after my break". I hop she doesnt get to read this last bit cos then she'll skin me alive, but wat am I suppose to do? this is my very own pursuit of Happiness, am tryin to enjoy my break and be happy and wont let anytin or anyone stop me, not even assignments.

On Monday I have to resume school and attend booooorin, endless lectures again as well as deal with my assignments. It breaks my heart to see this all end, I wish I could turn the hands of time and give myself another one week, impossible! Now I have to hurry up and go, and make gud use of the remaining time I have, enjoying my break while it lasts...:D