MY HEAD TELLS ME, I BELEIVE IT!

Here I am, pretty, very pretty! am trying to make myself feel GOOOOD. My head tells me am good enough, pretty, in fact so BEAUTIFUL. God has really made some people DROP DEATH GORGEOUS.....I want this crown, eventhough I know itz very impossible rite now

Why do I want it and know I cant have? cos itz meant for...

I cant help staring at these women, gosh, sooooooo preeeeetty.....:D

Now, am telling myself that am pretty, I refuse to be intimidated by these.....

This is sheer make-up, am very very very sure that if I have a beautician work on me, I'll even be more prettier.....I await to see who wins the crown, am going to watch the contest live tonight to know who wins Miss Universe

How I wish, I only wish it were me. One thing I know is that I love myself and have people who love me, so even though I dont get a chance to contest for and win Miss universe, I can make a difference in my own way!

Life is a product of our thoughts and actions; I will not allow these pretty women make me feel... My head, mind tells me am more than good enough to make it in life and that is absolutely what I believe.

WEEK 1; STILL NO DIFFERENCE.

This is really not what I bargained for, I assumed that my plan was goin to work well and I'll see results in no time, but the opposite seems to be the case here. I had planned that within the 15 weeks that I have before I go home during my holiday, I'll lose one kg every week so that as planned I'll weigh 70kg instead of the annoying 85kg I now weigh.

Everytin was suppose to go fine, I managed to make myself eat solid food only once in a day and avoided climbing the scale until the beginning of the week which is Sunday. On Sunday to my greatest amazement, I still weighed 85kg; no more no less. I stared a the scale and thought for a while, "it must be the scale not me" so I got down and adjusted the pointer which was supposedly deceiving me. Again, I climbed and it was the same, in fact this time it read 86. In a bit to console myself, I told myself that I'll try again tommorrow maybe then I would see that I've actually lost 1kg.....

Today, Monday I gave it another shot and itz still 85kg.

I give up. I didnt lose any weight this week despite my eating training, even though I guess itz because I eat heavy meals once a day instead of small meals at different times. Am goin to see wat happens this week, maybe I have to use a different strategy.

Whatever the case though, am optimistic that at the end of this week and on sunday when I go on the scale ,am going to lose a kg. Even if I dont, I'll still be happy with myself cos I know that I have managed to control binging every now and then. I know I can do this; and I will do this!

Did I Become a Celebrity?!

"Facebook should be a word in the dictionary" I saw my friend write that on her wall and I was agitated, some how I felt she was indirectly referring to me simply because of the fact that am always on facebook. I hardly ever take a break; even in klaz while lectures are going on, am on FB playing scrabble or chattin wit my klazmates who are also suppose to be seriously listenin 2 lectures. No notification ever passes me by cos am always nearby, the moment anytin happens on my wall, be it friend request, message or whatever, I see it immediately and respond if need be. The only tym am not active is wen am sleepin....

So, u see how confused I was few hours ago wen I woke up from sleep early in the morning and went "OH MY GOD" I saw 38 friend requests. Am not kidding, this is real like Michael Jackson is dead real. What happened overnite, within only about 6hrs is what I can not explain. Did I become a celebrity so sudden over nite without my even realizing it and people want to be associated with me? what is this? I cant be excited about this bcos I believe something is wrong somewhere... and the amazing part is that I dont even know all these people, ok, I know some but only a few. Definitely some thing(s) isnt right

Am going to skol now and hope that by 5:30 wen am done with lectures, I will be able to figure what happened. Or could it be that I really am a Celebrity now? I wonder!

Did I Become a Celebrity?!

"Facebook should be a word in the dictionary" I saw my friend write that on her wall and I was agitated, some how I felt she was indirectly referring to me simply because of the fact that am always on facebook. I hardly ever take a break; even in klaz while lectures are going on, am on FB playing scrabble or chattin wit my klazmates who are also suppose to be seriously listenin 2 lectures. No notification ever passes me by cos am always nearby, the moment anytin happens on my wall, be it friend request, message or whatever, I see it immediately and respond if need be. The only tym am not active is wen am sleepin....

So, u see how confused I was few hours ago wen I woke up from sleep early in the morning and went "OH MY GOD" I saw 38 friend requests. Am not kidding, this is real like Michael Jackson is dead real. What happened overnite, within only about 6hrs is what I can not explain. Did I become a celebrity so sudden over nite without my even realizing it and people want to be associated with me? what is this? I cant be excited about this bcos I believe something is wrong somewhere... and the amazing part is that I dont even know all these people, ok, I know some but only a few. Definitely some thing(s) isnt right

Am going to skol now and hope that by 5:30 wen am done with lectures, I will be able to figure what happened. Or could it be that I really am a Celebrity now? I wonder!

Triumph Mirror; an Eye Opener.

My trip back home was interesting and worth my decision, I had fun all through my stay and the only regret I have is not taking all my pictures from the camera before giving it back to my brother....Aaargh..

I have heard it time without number that I am fat, but seriously, I have never seen or even realized that I actually was fat so I felt they were all making a big fuss about nothing and as far as i was concerned, I was cute just the way I was until something happened recently...

On my way back home, I went through Egypt for a transit and I lodged in Triumph Hotel, Heliopolis,Cairo. I took off my clothes to shower and "OH My GOOOD LORD" I saw it all in the gigantic mirror on the wall, it was as if I had never seen my body in a mirror before!

Without further ado, I am fat and am going to lose weight now because I have seen for my self for the very first time that I have a lot of excess fat and there is need to shed them.

On my arrival back here in skol, I decided on my weight loss plan; before I go back home in about three months time, I will lose at least 15kg because I weighed myself and am 85kg ( dis is so disheartening). I intend to lose at least 1kg every week from now till November 2010 when I'll finally weigh 70kg...

Am grateful to the mirrors in Triumph Hotel that were an eye opener; I have made up my mind on what I want to do and there is no stopping me.