7 Years of my Life Gone to Sleep!

"I must sleep for at least 6 hours a day or else I wont be able to function" was my number 3 on the list of 5 important things to know about me. My class mates had an in-class training for me and some of my other colleagues as part of course work that was worth 15% in Psychology of Education on presentation skills. We were asked as part of the training activity to prepare presentation slides on "5 things you want your class mates to know about you".....

Exactly one week after my lovely presentation and getting good comments from my classmates and even lecturer, I finally realized how much of my life time I have actually wasted by allowing myself sleep for so long hours.

This is simple logic and calculation that even me who barely managed to get a C in Statistics can do. There are 365 days in a year, and since I am 23 years old that means I have slept for 8395 days (365 * 23). I sleep for at least 7hrs a day which is a total of 58765 hours in my life time (7 *8395)..........I have slept 7 hours in total sleeping.......

This is so disheartening, I cant believe that I have used only 16 years out of my whole life. Truth is, it may not even be up to that number of years if I take out time I use to shower, hang out with friends, eat etc. I may end up having not even up to 6 years of productivity in my life....how sad

My calculation could even be wrong for all I care, the bottom line is I SLEEP TOO MUCH. The irony is AM NOT WILLING TO SLEEP ANY LESS cos as my lecturer said in class today, an average adult needs about 6- 7 hours of sleep for good health and sustainability of the body metabolism and blah blah blah

Life sure sucks; I sleep 7 hrs and feel am wasting my time, I sleep less and am told itz not good for my health. Am doing what I want to do, whether it takes my time or not, am still going to SLEEP.

I WANT TO GO HOMEEEEE

This is the time in my life when I feel my brain is wired to be at home, on my bed, cuddling my teddy (Ata), watching a movie and falling asleep afterwards.....

Am in skool actually in the library but all I wanna do is go home. However I have a klaz in the next 3o minutes and it'll only be wise for me to stay back in skool and attend before I go.

Itz so frustating that most times I feel itz so hard to do what I really want to do because what I need to do always stands in my way. In simple terms; my "ID" tells me to go home and do what I want to do, my "EGO" tells me am suppose to stay back and attend my lecture, and my "SUPER EGO" reminds me of the consequences of missing my klaz. I love studying Psychology and knowin about all the theories of boring old men like Uncle Sigmund Freud.

That is the only thing keeping me back here in the library while I wait for time to tick fast; I love Psychology and am proud to be a student of Sunway University!

MY HEAD TELLS ME, I BELEIVE IT!

Here I am, pretty, very pretty! am trying to make myself feel GOOOOD. My head tells me am good enough, pretty, in fact so BEAUTIFUL. God has really made some people DROP DEATH GORGEOUS.....I want this crown, eventhough I know itz very impossible rite now

Why do I want it and know I cant have? cos itz meant for...

I cant help staring at these women, gosh, sooooooo preeeeetty.....:D

Now, am telling myself that am pretty, I refuse to be intimidated by these.....

This is sheer make-up, am very very very sure that if I have a beautician work on me, I'll even be more prettier.....I await to see who wins the crown, am going to watch the contest live tonight to know who wins Miss Universe

How I wish, I only wish it were me. One thing I know is that I love myself and have people who love me, so even though I dont get a chance to contest for and win Miss universe, I can make a difference in my own way!

Life is a product of our thoughts and actions; I will not allow these pretty women make me feel... My head, mind tells me am more than good enough to make it in life and that is absolutely what I believe.

WEEK 1; STILL NO DIFFERENCE.

This is really not what I bargained for, I assumed that my plan was goin to work well and I'll see results in no time, but the opposite seems to be the case here. I had planned that within the 15 weeks that I have before I go home during my holiday, I'll lose one kg every week so that as planned I'll weigh 70kg instead of the annoying 85kg I now weigh.

Everytin was suppose to go fine, I managed to make myself eat solid food only once in a day and avoided climbing the scale until the beginning of the week which is Sunday. On Sunday to my greatest amazement, I still weighed 85kg; no more no less. I stared a the scale and thought for a while, "it must be the scale not me" so I got down and adjusted the pointer which was supposedly deceiving me. Again, I climbed and it was the same, in fact this time it read 86. In a bit to console myself, I told myself that I'll try again tommorrow maybe then I would see that I've actually lost 1kg.....

Today, Monday I gave it another shot and itz still 85kg.

I give up. I didnt lose any weight this week despite my eating training, even though I guess itz because I eat heavy meals once a day instead of small meals at different times. Am goin to see wat happens this week, maybe I have to use a different strategy.

Whatever the case though, am optimistic that at the end of this week and on sunday when I go on the scale ,am going to lose a kg. Even if I dont, I'll still be happy with myself cos I know that I have managed to control binging every now and then. I know I can do this; and I will do this!

Did I Become a Celebrity?!

"Facebook should be a word in the dictionary" I saw my friend write that on her wall and I was agitated, some how I felt she was indirectly referring to me simply because of the fact that am always on facebook. I hardly ever take a break; even in klaz while lectures are going on, am on FB playing scrabble or chattin wit my klazmates who are also suppose to be seriously listenin 2 lectures. No notification ever passes me by cos am always nearby, the moment anytin happens on my wall, be it friend request, message or whatever, I see it immediately and respond if need be. The only tym am not active is wen am sleepin....

So, u see how confused I was few hours ago wen I woke up from sleep early in the morning and went "OH MY GOD" I saw 38 friend requests. Am not kidding, this is real like Michael Jackson is dead real. What happened overnite, within only about 6hrs is what I can not explain. Did I become a celebrity so sudden over nite without my even realizing it and people want to be associated with me? what is this? I cant be excited about this bcos I believe something is wrong somewhere... and the amazing part is that I dont even know all these people, ok, I know some but only a few. Definitely some thing(s) isnt right

Am going to skol now and hope that by 5:30 wen am done with lectures, I will be able to figure what happened. Or could it be that I really am a Celebrity now? I wonder!

Did I Become a Celebrity?!

"Facebook should be a word in the dictionary" I saw my friend write that on her wall and I was agitated, some how I felt she was indirectly referring to me simply because of the fact that am always on facebook. I hardly ever take a break; even in klaz while lectures are going on, am on FB playing scrabble or chattin wit my klazmates who are also suppose to be seriously listenin 2 lectures. No notification ever passes me by cos am always nearby, the moment anytin happens on my wall, be it friend request, message or whatever, I see it immediately and respond if need be. The only tym am not active is wen am sleepin....

So, u see how confused I was few hours ago wen I woke up from sleep early in the morning and went "OH MY GOD" I saw 38 friend requests. Am not kidding, this is real like Michael Jackson is dead real. What happened overnite, within only about 6hrs is what I can not explain. Did I become a celebrity so sudden over nite without my even realizing it and people want to be associated with me? what is this? I cant be excited about this bcos I believe something is wrong somewhere... and the amazing part is that I dont even know all these people, ok, I know some but only a few. Definitely some thing(s) isnt right

Am going to skol now and hope that by 5:30 wen am done with lectures, I will be able to figure what happened. Or could it be that I really am a Celebrity now? I wonder!

Triumph Mirror; an Eye Opener.

My trip back home was interesting and worth my decision, I had fun all through my stay and the only regret I have is not taking all my pictures from the camera before giving it back to my brother....Aaargh..

I have heard it time without number that I am fat, but seriously, I have never seen or even realized that I actually was fat so I felt they were all making a big fuss about nothing and as far as i was concerned, I was cute just the way I was until something happened recently...

On my way back home, I went through Egypt for a transit and I lodged in Triumph Hotel, Heliopolis,Cairo. I took off my clothes to shower and "OH My GOOOD LORD" I saw it all in the gigantic mirror on the wall, it was as if I had never seen my body in a mirror before!

Without further ado, I am fat and am going to lose weight now because I have seen for my self for the very first time that I have a lot of excess fat and there is need to shed them.

On my arrival back here in skol, I decided on my weight loss plan; before I go back home in about three months time, I will lose at least 15kg because I weighed myself and am 85kg ( dis is so disheartening). I intend to lose at least 1kg every week from now till November 2010 when I'll finally weigh 70kg...

Am grateful to the mirrors in Triumph Hotel that were an eye opener; I have made up my mind on what I want to do and there is no stopping me.